Relationship

Life is great with Yuan Shan, though we face some problems recently. I’m not going to post it here since it is really personal. However, I would roughly talk about it.

The last quarrel really hurts me a lot. It is weird that I still feel pain when Yuan Shan and I actually get closer after the fight. He didn’t say anything that hurt me. I was the one who hurt myself. I guess I lost my confidence and trust after the fight. Hmm…confidence in myself and trust in myself. I think Sheila would be the only one who knows about this, since she is the only one who knows about this. “This” as in the confidence and trust in myself, that I talk about when I just broke up with M. Anyway I broke up with M because I didn’t have confidence and trust in myself. Haha.

Hmm..anyway, I have gain back the trust and confidence le =) My expectations were too high for myself I guessed. I always tell people that no one is perfect and it is ok to be imperfect. However, I always want myself to be perfect. Haha. Greedy Yuan Xin. Haha. Hmm…but now I am happy for who I am. Well, the only thing I should change is, I need to learn more to make decisions when it comes to some things. Haha.

By the way, I love to quarrel with Yuan Shan. Haha. We can simply quarrel about anything. Of course, these are enjoyable quarrels. Haha. I think we are quite stupid to quarrel about date and time, comparing about TP and NYP, who is pig and so on. Haha. It’s stupid, but it’s really fun. Haha. I don’t mind more of this, since we both enjoyed it. Hehe.

Seriously he really touched my heart =)

Since I’m updating about my relationship life, I shall talk about M. It doesn’t mean anything okay? I just treat him as a friend.

I’m suspecting that M and his girlfriend have break up. (I shall call her S) I actually feel like helping them by talking to one of them, but I don’t know who I should talk to. I haven’t been talking to M and I am very sure that he won’t tell me. I want to talk to S but I don’t know what to start with.

It was just nice that S actually talk to me on Thursday. She is just asking if I ever have a blog. (I don’t know why she asks for it. Anyway I didn’t give as everyone knows I don’t really give my blog to people.) So I used this chance to talk to her.

I don’t really know the reason whys she break with him. She asked me to ask him =.= Anyway I only know that the reason she break with him is about the same as me =.= but I don’t know why she look down on herself. I guess she just needs some confidence in herself.

I believed she is a great girl and I believe M really loves her a lot. I don’t want her to miss her chance to be with someone who she loves. I don’t want her to take my path. That’s all. I really hope that she will think about patching up with M again.
Seriously, I just want to help them. I don’t have any evil thoughts or anything. I know I’m busybody, but I just want to help.

I find fate really interesting. S wants to break with M for the same reason as me. S and M actually have a past when they are 11 or 12 (I forget is 11 or 12 le), just like me and Yuan Shan. Haha. Arh…but Yuan Shan is not my first boyfriend. Haha.

Oh oh, by the way, I’m glad that I took this path. If I didn’t, I won’t have been together with Yuan Shan and I’m really glad that I met him again. I’m really glad that there is something that triggers him to think about me when I just break with M. Haha. Isn’t fate interesting? He only realized he still likes me after so many years and just nice I break with M.

I love Yuan Shan =X Thanks for loving me as who I am. Thanks for accepting all my flaws.
For heaven sake, I wish no one read my blog.

I think Yuan Shan would say I post too much things on blog. Haha.