Live Your Life To The Fullest

Hello!!!! Do you all miss me? Haha. I bet no one is reading my blog. Yes! One week holiday has passed! I’m glad that one semester is going to end because now more projects for the 5 weeks holiday! (after my exams)

Now I’m having my attachment is TTHS. For the first few days, I felt really useless, because I don’t know what to do! However, things get better and better. At least, now I can communicate with my patients freely! =D

Elderly people are so so so cute!!!! Arh…although some may be stubborn and don’t want to listen to us, they are still damn bloody cute!!!!! I love them so much. Hehe.

Anyway, on the first day I entered my cubicle, someone passed away during my shift. I’m amazed that I can actually be so neutral. I was not afraid of touching the body, I didn’t cry. I just take it normally, although I do feel something when I saw the patient’s family members.

By the way, I got scolding from one of the family members because I can’t answer his question clearly. I guess I was really insensitive. I didn’t know that the death time is so important to the family members.

The death of the patient actually reminds me of my uncle and grandpa death. When my uncle and grandpa past away, I didn’t ask anything, I just keep quiet and try to avoid having any eye contact because I didn’t want to let my emotions out. Of course, I did cry in the end. For this patient, I haven’t got to talk to her, she passed away. So maybe this is the reason why I didn't cry. Hmmm...anyway since I'm having my shift, I cna't let my emotions affect me too.

Anyway, I have learned a lot of things in the hospital and I learned from my mistake. I actually questioned on myself. Why I’m not able to answer the family’s members questions.
If I’m not wrong, when my uncle passed away, my aunty actually wants to confirm with the death time. Yuan Xin is not alert enough!

Come to think about it, death time is really important. When my uncle passed away, I was there with him, so I didn’t ask for the death time. For my grandpa, I was simply too sad to ask any questions.

Okay, I’m going off track. Anyway on Monday, our clinical in-charge will be going to assess us! I hope I can do well and passed this attachment with flying colours!

Oh, another thing, I won’t blog about everything because a lot of things are confidential!

PS: 3 weeks for attachment = no study week =( [3 exams after the 3 weeks holiday]
FYI: Only some nursing tutorial group has attachment *angry*

02.08.10 The Burden Going To Be Lighter As Time Passby

After Wednesday, I will be free. Through these projects, I know different kind of people.

What I’m going to say, not only base on the groups I work with, it include other groups.

Okay, this is describing the people I worked with in all projects including web design. What I see is: Most of the people like to copy and paste. Some of them like to find short cuts (Maybe they are lazy?) Some of them don’t know how to think.
From all these I can conclude that: They never put in their heart when they doing their work. They didn’t try their best to make the best out of it. They never put in effort.

Hmm…I shall give other better reasons why their work didn’t meet the expectations. Maybe they don’t understand the question. Maybe they don’t know how to make presentation.

I’m always the one who do the most in group project even doing simple stuff, because I want to make the best out of it. I don’t just stop, when I found something. I try to find something better. I do copy and paste sometimes, but I always try to link it to the project or use my own words. I always filter out unnecessary stuff.

The REAL reason why I always spend so much time doing the last job because I have to help them clear up their “mess”. Mess = things that still can improve. Okay, I can’t really blame them. I was the one that didn’t ask them to improvise it. And the reason I didn’t ask them to, is I don’t really trust them. Ya, I’m wrong to have this mindset. For this mindset, I would change for the next semester.

I think the only person that I trust is Clara, though she is blur at times, she always willing to learn.

For the web design (Theme: recipes) I worked with other group. I guess I still not use to working with them, so I still tend to do things by myself. I’m particularly fed up with one person, but I didn’t tell her as I don’t really know her. I changed all her things that she put into the web page, but at least two of her recipes still can be used.

Other group members, I’m fine with their work. I just don’t like that they copy and paste and didn’t find a better quality picture. Hmm…but I’m not angry with them.
G just never standardizes her work, but the picture is okay. R never standardizes her work too and her pictures are in poor quality, but at least I did saw her trying to find a better picture and I’m the one who told her, I would help her to find. K, she did great. Just that one of her picture is blur.

Hmmm…there is something bad about me when I’m doing projects. I always didn’t ask my group members for permission when I change their things! Okay, I don’t know why I didn’t consult them. Hmm…maybe I’m too full of myself that I think I don’t need to consult them because I think what I done is better than what they did before. Yuan Xin, bad habit! You are not always right! Arh…next time I must consult them!!! Yuan Xin! Communication is important!

Another thing, I have alot of things to blog about. Arh...but it is negative things. Things that makes me want to cut off from people =/